happy valentines day

Of the summer of ’09 I met someone, someone who became to be someone very special. And yea he was a boy but not yet a man. He became so special to me just over a couple months, after a few days of talking we went out. He was everything to me, and I gave up everything for him, and I mean EVERYTHING! I was in love, or I thought it was love…… but I don’t know for sure. I thought it was love at first sight, but I was wrong. Well I know I was in love with him but I wasn’t sure if he was in love with me. A month later, two days after my birthday, some girl who was supposed to be my best friend, told him a lie, a rumor. That I cheated on him which was definitely not true! And he didn’t even come to me and ask me about he just broke up with me through text. Like how lame was that?

Then when he heard the truth he still didn’t ask me out again. Days go by we don’t talk. His sister became my best friend, which made it harder to get over him. A couple days later I heard from his sister that their mom let him sleep over my so called best friend’s house. He spent the night several nights. Me, I was for sure that my so called best friend back stabbed me in the back. Yeah I knew they slept together almost every night he went over there. And I felt betrayed, hurt that my own best friend would do that to me. About a month later, I found out that they had broken up. I thought to myself “when did they even start going out?” they kept it a secret from me.

Then I got to thinking “was he cheating on me? Or did they go out after he broke up with me?” I never could answer those questions, because we never really talked about it with him. But when I talked to my so called best friend she flat out lied to my face. I guess love isn’t really what it is cracked up to be. After him I couldn’t love anyone else as much as I loved him. For some reason I’m still in love with him, there is something about him that I can’t let go of. For some reason I’m still attached, I can never get him off my mind even till this day. For some reason I am still in love with him but I can’t figure out why. I guess I will never find the love with anyone that I had with him. He treats me horrible but for some reason I can never let go…….the love is too strong.